Given the situation about the silencer and if I went back on my training and did a cursory pat down and not relying upon my search instead of a full-fledged nut scrunching ass crack feeling, armpit pinching, weapons search, I can see it happening to me.Just keep in context that this was written by an officer, for officers. They are correct in that we'll likely never know what sent this officer off down a bad road. It does bring to mind the old adage “There but for the grace of God go I.”