I had a relationship with Jesus for over 25 years. It was abusive, so I left. I'm a lot happier now which is just more evidence that your claim is baseless.
You're contractually obligated to think that.
It's funny you mention tribalism. That's precisely how I see religion. As long as you think like them, you're a part of the tribe. If you stop thinking like them, you're no longer a part and are cast out. It's all too common for "apostates."
Whatever makes you sleep at night. I'm not obligated to think any particular way, in spite of what some Christians and non-Christians think. And I'm a tribal SOB if there ever was one.